Man...this has been one hell of a year.
What else can I say? Not only has this year been difficult for me personally, but a hurricane of unpleasantness for everyone. I know I'm not the only one longing and hoping for 2017 and that it will bring better memories then this year leaves us.
Though it may appear that I have left yet another journal swearing to increase my activity only to once more dwindle back to the land of no productivity(unproductivity should really be a word; or spellcheck doesn't recognize it as such), I have been working. Lately I have been brushing off my old animation skills and reacquainting myself with that passion. My schooling never covered traditional animation and though seeing Moana reignites my excitement and desire to make things of it's quality one day, I never got to quench my passion for traditional animation style(being pedantic I still use tablet/stylist and not pencil and paper, but you get the idea) and I'm honestly getting sick of hoping to find a school to teach me. I've also become sick of fearing my lack of perfection based on pride; as an animation graduate and a worker in the video game industry I tear down all my work feeling I should be much better than what I am so I hate the idea of showing off my work feeling others will harbor the same thoughts I do. This leaves things to stagnate and hurt me, for to get better I have to actually draw rather that be hard on myself for becoming rusty. Of course I'll continue to rust if I don't move, and that's not meant to scold, but to help stop beating myself up.
This journal is yet more of the same of the last one, but it's more for me anyway. I'm sick of fearing my age, scolding myself for falling off the train for only two years since my time at Phoenix Online, and sick of fearing what I love and what everyone will think.
I thank
, whose response to my last journal helped make my year. I didn't know linking their page would alert them, so I was surprised and admittedly embarrassed to get a response(though of course honored). I didn't expect the attention so was a shy little blob about it. Feel free to ignore this Anima *now knowing you are likely seeing this* since its the same babbles, but again: Thank you so much.
Come on 2017, come and be my year!